..Thursday, July 28, 2005..
okay.. for those few of you who read my blog.. haha.. if you would... please relink me.. and stop visiting this site. if you can't be bothered doing it.. then nevermind lah.. coz i'd be putting my new URL here anyway. my new blog address is
www.xanga.com/fretcet
Sean
drowned.in.her.love @ 7:52 PM
..Tuesday, July 26, 2005..
eh.. hows everyone today? good? good?
i think i'm the only geek watching australian idol.. wahh.. natalie.. erm.. Z... her over the rainbow was just terrific lah.. i felt.
heard her sing the first time.. it was sooooo good lor.. oh my goodness! and the second time was even better.
anyway today was pretty dull.. nothing much. i've been doing absolutely zero work... in school or at home.. haha. i suck i know. i really should get off my arse and do something.. totally bored. okay the only work i'm doing is tt story i'm writing lah... other than tt... nothing at all.
i'm going to speak to my cousin soon about getting a part time job... dunno if can or not.. since not coming back sg every year for 2 months. haha. alright. seeya.
Sean
drowned.in.her.love @ 9:32 PM
..Monday, July 25, 2005..
okay lah.. so today was careers day for all the year 10s. closes eyes for a little while.. abdicating.. AHAHHAHA...
okay.. so.. i walked in the locker area. and saw this guy in a suit lah.. and i was like.. ' HAHAHHAHA WHAT A FREAK.. ITS CASUAL! ' oooh.. thousands of NOT EVERYONE DRESSED LIKE TT. i saw MATT GREEN! oh my god! wearing tie... i saw angus.. wearing suit
and me.. oh.. you wouldn't even wanna know.... so didn't scream a thousand man.. i can just go do it now also....
hahaha.. but it turned out to be quite alright. of course... so many pple turned up in casual clothes as welll. i just thought it'd be interesting coz it felt like i was living the OC for a while.. you know how those guys and gals dress up too nicely for stuff.
ahh.. interesting day
outta here. seeya!
Sean
drowned.in.her.love @ 9:10 PM
..Saturday, July 23, 2005..
so anyway... second blog of the day since.. not bored. hahahaha. err.... i wanna blog about two things. just now i was so excited about going to the australian international hotel school.. to study hotel management. but found out tt its a private uni so u actually have to pay alot to study there. so i dropped the idea. hmmm.. maybe i'd just go back to doing journalism again.
okayy.. second thing i wanna blog is erm.... (actually theres 3 things i wanna blog about).. okay... errr.... theres this guy... on friendster. his profile caught my eye. he says that life is a game... and tt we are all players. money and stuff are like cheats. and tt pple who create any kind of rule or regulation are also human like us. and they can therefore be challenged.
okayy.. really charming. fine... dandy.... sexy.... mentality. esp the part where he said tt... he wants to teach a teacher and all tt.
its a great philosophy... and.... i was really impressed.. reading it.. lol... UNFORTUNATELY... i disagree.
life is a game? so what? experiencing death is just a setback? what is love? another cheat? tt you can do without? what is god? the creator of this " game "? for his own amusement? so how exactly do we play this " game "? not abide by the rules?
rules and regulations do make life complicated. but life is not a game... from my perspective. it contains too much.... and too intricate is our own instrument to be measured in such a tone. too complicated our affairs of the heart to treat life like a game.
because if it is a game... we'd all want to win. and what exactly is win in life? what is? to be happy? ultimately to die happily? to go to heaven? wake up... alright... because life ISN'T a game.... it is something so special tt's given to us... tt consists of so many things.. and so many feelings that we've yet to understand. it is associated with practices more acient that we can ever count up to.
so life is not a game. and our medium not an arena. it is a miracle.
WOOOOO.. nice essay. jokes. i doubt it even made any sense. but i suppose u guys get my drift.
thirdly....
what is music? technical work? something that can only be done... in a country where music is respected?
i have a strong desire to communicate that music is not all that.
the day that music ceases to be intense... to inspire.... to grip and to hold the imagination of people. the day that instruments stop shaking in pleasure.... and thoughts of nothing but intricate notes hanging in the air... the day these things stop. the day music ceases to exist.
you are not a musician.. if you do not allow your instrument to become part of yourself. to assimilate into your own body. so much so that when you put your fingers onto the piano... or a bow.. or kiss your instrument lightly.. that the whole thing becomes one. a perfect union. and so that it can be shaped... so that when you play.. you are talking.. you are singing.. you are throwing your voice out onto the world beyond.
and when you're done... your audience must know... what you're trying to say. they hear notes.. but when they look at you.. and see the expression on your face.. they know that you can NEVER be silent.. because you are a musician.
so next time when a musician plays. a real musician. look at him..... allow yourself to rape him with your eyes.. go through his clothes.. and find his sensitive areas.
touch him with your mind... kiss him on the eyelids..... and then you will know what he is trying to say.
in all genre's of music.... it says the same thing.
pop music? it does not require much strength. why? because with words,, you never have to go far to know what the music is trying to say to you. but passion.. oh my.... pop music is full of it. just the words lingering on your mouth should make you want to jump.. and play... and sing... and dance.... and let the song never ever end.
and classical music. listen carefully. to the soul it contains. for the minute a musician plays a note.. you hear his voice.
so remember what i say... music is something so powerful... that so few people can understand it. and who cares if you have learnt music for 20 years. if your desire is not to communicate.... is not to bring beauty and embrace life..... is not to feel depressed when necesssary.... and close your eyes when piano....
then i'm sorry. you are no musician.
becuase musicians are not afraid.
close your eyes. sing a song. put passion into your words. and you can never go wrong.
Sean
drowned.in.her.love @ 9:49 PM
let me tell you about what happened earlier... u know how my cousin came back from france right?... haha.. yeah its fine and dandy and all... but... one more... sorta.. strange person to live with. strange as in.. stranger. i know she's my cousin and all, but i don't really know her that well.
so just now tried to practise piano and couldn't.. haha... sucky... cos.... too self conscious about how i sound. hahahahaha.. terrible man. dunno how to overcome this. got strange pple listening to the practice stage i can't do it.
hahahaha... only can let pple hear the " finished " part... maybe coz i'm too proud la.. can just go and pinch myself. LOL.
ahhh.
Sean
drowned.in.her.love @ 6:34 PM
..Friday, July 22, 2005..
ahhh.. haha.. today was fun. i played truant. its kinda the first time in my life. i'm always very scared to do things like this lor.. but i guess this time was quite alright larr..
anyway i went to jack's house in the morning. and i was hungry so he gave me some.. stuff to eat. and i ate the whole box. then aft tt checked the nutritional information.. SO I ATE 18 SERVINGS OF BISCUITS LAHHH.. 990 CALORIES.. wah didn't DIE.
okay... then.. after fooling arnd.. and me trying to take a nap (unsuccessfully).. we left to go and watch FANTASTIC FOUR! lol. it was a good movie i guess.. kinda liked it. haha. and then after tt i came home.. to an empty house..
played piano.. then went for piano lesson.
my piano teacher's being such a nice person.. offering to bring me to church and stuff.. and join the RCI.. whatever tt is.. at st francis xavier.
anyway.. i think god sent me her lah.. even though i'm so damn irritated with her when we're at the piano. lol.
okay.... ai lyn JIE JIE.. is coming back tomorrow so.... yeaaap. guess i'd see her when i get back from chinese class.
it
d be interesting. just finished chatting with her just now.
VIVE LA DIFFERENCE!
alright outta here.
Sean
drowned.in.her.love @ 9:04 PM
..Thursday, July 21, 2005..
hey guys... can you please help me?
how can i feel so empty?
i'm losing all feeling whatsoever,
nothing makes me happy anymore.
i am so unhappy with myself.
hmmm.
guess tomorrow's a new day.
i have to concentrate on being sean again.
Sean
drowned.in.her.love @ 9:28 PM
..Wednesday, July 20, 2005..
sighhh..
i pray you'll be our eyes.... and watch us where we go... and help us to be wise.... in times when we don't.. knooooowwwwww..... let this be a prayer... when we lose our way... lead us to a place. guide us with your grace. give us faith so we'll be safe.
(italian)
hehehe.. while the italina plays. my typing skills improving rite.. LOL. haha. i really love this song.. haha.
la fonsa che ci noi,
we ask tt life be kind,
and watch us from above.
and hope you'll find..
oh! another soul to love...
let this be a prayer...
just like EVERY child....
e la fede che!
a ches choi noi
sindo, che ci salve
raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
okay so the italian spelling sucks but u can't blame me. this is like.. the prayer.. the title of this song. reason why i'm listening to it is coz i'm depressed. and i really think these words touch me.. because they're sorta what i feel. i really feel like crying after i listen to this.
i really wanna tell my mum tt i miss her so much. and tt i hate living with her bitch of a sister. lol. okay next song i wanna share is " hero " by enrique iglesias.
lol.. not share la.. listen to it and see if can type out the lyrics.
Hero - enrique iglesias
(let me be your hero)
Would you dance? If I asked you to dance,
Would you run, and never look back.
Would you cry, if you saw me crying?
Would you safe my soul tonight?
Would u tremble, if i touched your lips?
would you laugh, oh please tell me this :
now would you die, for the one you love.
Hold me in your arms tonight.
I can be your hero baby!
I can kiss away the pain!
I will stand by you forever
you can take.. my breathe away.
Would you swear, that you'll always be mine,
would you lie, would you run away?
Mine to be.... have i lost my mind?
I don't care your fear tonight?
I can be your hero baby!
I can kiss away the pain!
I will stand by you forever!
you can take.. my breathe away.
okayy.. int music part. LOL. not bad. got most words. MOST. some don't have.
ahhh.. i just wanna hold you.
i just wanna hold you.
oh yeah!
mine to be, have i lost my mind?
Well i don't care, you're here tonite
OH SO TT'S WHAT IT WAS!
i can be ur hero baby!
i can kiss away the pain!
i will stand by your forever!
you.. can take... my breathe away.
repeatssssss a thousand. lol.
okayy.. last song for today tt i am listening to now coz i'm depressed... Angels.
lol. short song.
I errrr...
doesn't major? HUUHH?
come to led my fans?
PRONOUNCIATION ROCKS LA
do they know?
the places where we go
when we're grey and all
so when i'm lying in my bed,
thoughts running through my head,
and i feel that love is dead
i'm loving angels instead,
and through it all./
she offers me protection
love and affection
whether i am right and wrong
never wanna fall!
wherever it may take it
i know life wanna wreck me
when i come to call
she won't.. err. smth smth.
i'm loving angels.................
insteeeeaaaadd.
Sean
drowned.in.her.love @ 9:19 PM